Yet I Do Nothing

The reason
I pick at my acne
Until it bleeds
Isn’t a simple one

One
I hate the pressure
Under my outsides
The gnawing ache
Of my swollen pores

Two
When the liquid
the white paste
oozes out of me
I feel relief

Three
It doesn’t matter
How much the meds help
I still get the urge to
Pinch my insides out

Four
I never learned
How to keep myself smooth
At least not as smooth as I would like
Not as smooth as society tells me I should be

Five
It’s not a real problem to me
That my pain makes me feel better
Just like how I did not think
My anxiety was a problem either

But it was
And this might be
Yet I do nothing
But write this poem
And pick at my skin

The Back of My Neck

The Back of My Neck

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Dogs: The Best People

I often marvel at dogs. What they can accomplish when working with humans is astounding as well as their loyalty and compassion. There was one episode of Dogs 101 on the channel Animal Planet on TV, where a police officer from New York City describes his black lab who worked with him after the twin towers fell to help the rescue effort. He said that the dog would go into places where he wasn’t sure he would come out again. Dogs can be so brave. Recently before the interview the dog had to be put to sleep having served a full life of working with his human partner. It was hard to watch such a dignified man get teary eyed talking about it.

My Aunt's Dogs Olive (front) and Maizie (back).

My Aunt’s Dogs Olive (front) and Maizie (back).

There was another account I think I saw on the internet of a dog in Japan who waited for his owner days after his owner died. Can you imagine giving up food, water, and your own general comfort just out of loyalty for one person? Dogs are so selfless it is mind-boggling. There was also recently a picture online of Marines saluting an old German Shepard who was going into the Vet to be put to sleep. Who better to have this honor than a dog? The dog was in the service and being a dog worked his tail off (pun totally intended) selflessly just to please his master and be affirmed as a member of the pack. If more people did something just to make other people happy, the world would be a better place.

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My Family’s Previous Dog Ace. He passed away in 2012.

Adding to that idea, there are a lot of life lessons people can learn from dogs. I often see dogs portraying the best emotions and qualities of human kind; Then again dog backwards is God. Coincidence; I think not. Dogs are self-less, compassionate, loyal, brave, and above all know how to appreciate the small things (like a tennis ball). So how about we become a bit more like them in our daily lives.

My Family's Current Puppy Remus. He is a sweetie.

My Family’s Current Puppy Remus. He is a sweetie.

My Weekend in Florida

So this past weekend I went to Florida to visit my grandmother. It was a good time. She treated my sister and I to mani-pedis and getting our hair done. She also treated us to a shopping trip and paid for our clothes. Now I have a bunch of lovely professional clothing for future interviews and teaching. Florida was lovely. 

Much Happiness,

Megan

There were all these little lizards around. Too cute! :3

There were all these little lizards around. Too cute! :3

Pretty Birdy Near Water

Pretty Birdy Near Water

More Foliage

More Foliage

More Foliage

More Foliage

Me In My Bathing Suit

Me In My Bathing Suit

Pool Time!

Pool Time!

More Foliage & Sky

More Foliage & Sky

Foliage

Foliage

My hair after I took it down

My hair after I took it down

My lovely sister

My lovely sister

Painted Toes!

Painted Toes!

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More of My Hair (It seriously never gets styled so it was a big deal)

More of My Hair (It seriously never gets styled so it was a big deal)

More Pics of My Hair

More Pics of My Hair

Me

Me

Hairstyle (My sister in the background)

Hairstyle (My sister in the background)

Nails

Nails

Nails

Nails

My Suitcase

My Suitcase

More Landscape

More Landscape

Sky & Trees

Sky & Trees

At Last I See The Light!

Hello Everyone! The sun this morning was gorgeous on the trees and leaves. It was making everything sparkle after the rain. Don’t you just love that? I decided to snap a few pictures when I was taking Remus out to do his business. He is quite happy that there is no more rain and is now looking at me in judgment for not playing with him (am I a bad sister?). Anyway… The sun reminded me of the movie Tangled which I love so much and I decided to make a treasury about it today. 

Much Happiness and Light,

Megan

The Garden Has Grown.

The Garden Has Grown.

White Pine Standing Proud.

White Pine Standing Proud.

Lit Up Leaves.

Lit Up Leaves.

Love How The Light Shows The Pink and Green.

Love How The Light Shows The Pink and Green.

Daddy Long Legs Chilling.

Daddy Long Legs Chilling.

The Sun In All His Glory.

The Sun In All His Glory.

Remus Being Pretty.

Remus Being Pretty.

Remus Looking A Bit Smug.

Remus Looking A Bit Smug.

Indian Pipe Mushrooms.

Indian Pipe Mushrooms.

More Lit Up Leaves.

More Lit Up Leaves.

Autumn Colors Already Showing A Bit.

Autumn Colors Already Showing A Bit.

The Treasury.

The Treasury.

Writing Wednesday: Rainy Day Dose

Rainy Day Doze

Your belly is near my head
as I listen to you breathe

Your corn chip fur softens
as I listen to the rain

Your paws flex lightly
as I Listen to your sigh

Your eyes twitch slightly
As I listen to the breeze

Your wet nose wiggles
As I listen to your heart

Remus Sleeping

Remus Sleeping

Remus Outside (He hates the rain)

Remus Outside (He hates the rain)

Raindrops On Tiger Lily Leaves

Raindrops On Tiger Lily Leaves

Remus Being Dried Off. What a little derp!

Remus Being Dried Off. What a little derp!

 

My Garden

My Garden this year came out really nice. I’d say more but I’ll let the pictures speak for themselves.

The Garden

The Garden

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The Yellow Flowers Are Mums.

The Yellow Flowers Are Mums.

Pretty Pink

Pretty Pink

Can Never Go Wrong With White

Can Never Go Wrong With White

Asiatic Lilies Have Bloomed

Asiatic Lilies Have Bloomed

Trying To Grow Perennial Flowers

Trying To Grow Perennial Flowers

Little plantlets

Little plantlets

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These are Lupines starting to sprout.

These are Lupines starting to sprout.

The Hummingbirds Love This

The Hummingbirds Love This

Hummingbird View

Hummingbird View

A Type Of Nettle. We Had No Idea It Bloomed.

A Type Of Nettle. We Had No Idea It Bloomed.

Thoughtful Thursday: Happy 4th of July

I had a fantastic 4th of July up in New Hampshire with my family. I swam in a lake, chased around little kids and babies, kayaked, ate good food, talked, made a friend, and luckily for you took many pictures. Now I am listening to the distant boom of fireworks from the neighborhood.

As I close up the day, I am starting to think about happiness. What does it mean to be happy? Is there are recipe for happiness? Does it come from external sources or can it only come from within yourself and how you approach the world? Happiness as  a philosophical idea is something I haven’t looked into that deeply. Sure you have your instant gratification; eating food, kissing, buying that brand new hat, and other such physical things. Was I happy today because I was wearing my new bikini? Yes. Was I happy because the cool water felt good and the steak I ate was flavorful and juicy? Yes. But you know.. Long term happiness is difficult to put my finger on. But I can say one thing, I know I will be generally happy for the long term because I was happy today. I was happy not just because of all the instantly gratifying things I experienced but because of the family which was around me. The little ones, my cousin who’s like a sister to me, my aunts, my parents, and a new friend my age were all reason to be happy. It was an exceptionally excellent day.

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